Thursday, March 15, 2007

Life is Good...

A wise friend once told me "Life will get back to good, it always does." And she was right. Not that life was really bad, on a scale from 1-10 I was feeling at about a 5.5. I'll be honest, the ups and downs of life can sometimes really get the best of you. I desire so much to thank each of you individually for your wisdom, support, kind words, prayers and most of all your friendship, you all are just too much sometimes. Too much in the most awesome way. Really, it boggles my mind sometimes what unique and sincere friendships a girl can have with so many miles in between. In reality I have never been face to face with many of you amazingly incredible women, and the fact that our friendships can grow and thrive is just an incredible thing to me.

On the home front we are doing very well. It's a process I tell you, and it sounds like some of you know just what I mean when I say this. Like with anything, I have my good days and my bad days, however mostly though I am copacetic with my emotions. You can imagine that some days it's easier and other days I search tirelessly to find that clear and present answer. All the while, getting there slowly.

You want to hear something really just too cool for words? I wish so much to do this gesture justice, so please bear with me... KP and I belong to a small group through church, it's a "Young Marrieds" group that we adore dearly. Our good friends Bret and Kim from the group dropped by yesterday evening to bring "a little something" for us. Well, I admit to having myself a long overdue break down, I was so moved by this "little something." It was the most delicate (I had to measure it as precise details are a must for this compassionate gesture). This precious 16"x19" blanket was hand knitted by Bret's mother. The most beautiful decorative pattern all in a soft white yarn. I am not sure if just a coincidence, but I couldn't help but relate the white yarn to that of the purity and innocence of an unborn child. Come to find out, she knits these small beauties for a local hospital, they are given to the families of still born and miscarried babies. It was wrapped up so sweetly and adorned with a tag that read so simply, so poignant "In Remembrance of Baby Paddack." It was one of the most divine things that ever touched my heart.

On another note, we have been busy enjoying the most beautiful spring like weather here in the valley. We have been spending any extra time we have in what will soon be our very own backyard oasis. We have lived in our home for three years this month and we are finally completing our backyard work in progress. We have had a wonderful patio for about a year now, but without grass and all the dazzling extras it was just no fun. Needless to say I have thoroughly enjoyed every minute shopping for all the necessities, of course. String lights, (you know the kind you see adorning lavish wedding tents). I have always loved the look of simple small light bulbs hanging from a draped wire and I am determined to incorporate that into our yard. New cushions for our patio furniture, lantern style landscape lighting.

Ummm, did I mention hubs is an electrician, in case I didn't... three cheers for my awesome hubby who is the most hardworking and completely handy man I know, lucky me!
Bella is having a ball helping Daddy with the "pinklers." She has never been so filthy in her 19 months as she has the past week, but oh what fun she is having. For a moment I cringe at the dirt and grime, all in the same moment my heart is filled with happiness while I watch her at play without a care in the world. Life is too short (I think to myself) she will spend plenty of time in her life "clean and proper." Dig in Missy, dig in!

So, although the leftovers around her face tell another story, note be made that we discovered real quick that she's not too crazy about the taste of mud pies. Guess I don't blame her!

Sweet dreams my friends, xo


lee woodside said...

Hey sweetie you have definately been in my thoughts n prayers over the last couple of weeks.
That is just so beautiful what your friends gave you. You are so blessed to have special people like that in your life.
Bella just looks adorable!

Anonymous said...

You never cease to amaze me and sometimes bring a little tear to my eye! I wish you lived close to me instead of the other side of the earth! I think to have a friend as sweet as you would be the nicest thing!!! I am happy that your starting to feel a little better because I've certainly missed your blogging! I love the photos gosh bella is growing up!!
squashy hug nicole irvin

nicole said...'s OK to have tough moments. you are blessed in many ways...good friends, loving family and a beautiful attitude that is just so've been such a blessing to me. can't wait to see your own little oasis. sounds wonderful. and, could miss bella be any cuter?
love ya!

Anne Thompson said...

Oh my gosh, Bella is soooo incredibly beautiful. That is so incredible that they gave you the blanket, isn't it amazing when God brings special people into your lives at just the right moment. Thinking of you!

Kimber-Leigh said...

You are precious Miss Jillian! Still keeping you in my good to hear from you...can't wait to see the oasis that awaits you! And you made me laugh with the mudpie picture!

Leah said...

What a wonderful gift from your friends. And your little girl is so cute. Love the expression on her face in that last pic! said...

Hi Jillian,
I have just read your blog for the first time and i am compassionate of what has happened to you as it has happened to me. You are always surrounded and blessed by angels and to talk about it is the first step to healing. My prayers and wishes are with you and your family-especially your little girl, just soooo cute ( i have 2 of my own now!). Lots of love and light to you and i will continue to read your daily blessings...Meri

staceyfike said...

she is such a cutie!!
love the "mud face" lol!!

elizabeth said...

i am *so* happy to hear that you are starting to have some good days. i know exactly how you feel.

oh, that blanket....brought tears to my eyes. how sweet of your friend's mother to do that. seriously, i don't know her but i could hug her.

your bella-boo is so stinkin' cute, i can hardly stand it. and you're lucky your hubby is an's a csi, so i guess i benefit if i ever need to be arrested or to have him solve a case for me ;)

Kelly said...

jillian, your post breaks my heart...having lost a baby myself, I know all too well the emotions you're going through. Just take it one day at a time. It sounds like you've got a great support system and some amazing friends (that blanket sounds wonderful). still thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers!
and can i tell you how much we could use your hubby and his electrical skills at our new house right now? ;)